Love's gonna get you down..

I wanted to write. I was feeling inspired.

I have nothing to say.

..Confused much?

Peace and Love,
Torii xo

We all live in a yellow submarine =)

Change is good, it amuses me. Move things around a little and you can see the world from a whole new angle. That's what i just did.

Today i had a room fit. I woke up and decided that i was going to change my, even if it was just a little, and would not take no for an answer. So, instead of begging my parents for their aproval, which i knew i would definately not get, i did things my way. I tore my whole room down. Moved things. Cleaned. Cleared. Changed. Displaced. Threw away. Folded. Hid. Chucked out. Brought in. And the list can go on. It was somewhat amusing to an extent. And, to be quite frank, i don't know how i managed to move some stuff. Thank God for skateboards i guess =)

I had a pc which i stopped using some time ago and just ripped all the wires off it and quite savagely threw it out of my room. There was also a shoe rack. Yes i had most of my shoes in it but it was bugging me. Just sitting there. In the corner of my eye. So i threw all the shoes off it, lifted it onto my skateboard and rolled it out of my room. Yes. I obstructed the hall. But i don't care my room is more important to me since i can access the other side of the house from the back door in my room. I forced the bed out of it's place and turned it into a vertical direction as opposed to the horizontal direction it was in before. Yes i'll miss having the wall on one side- i fall over easily- but at least i'm happier with my room like this. I also moved around some of the cupboards, but shan't go into the details of that. Now my room even has it's own music corner, small as it may be. I fit the amp and my electric in next to my bed and got a small stool too. Now i don't have to slouch on my bed i'm playing guitar.

Talking about the electric, guitar calls me and i must fullfill my duties of covering paramore, kings of leon and the like on it.

Peace and Love,
Torii xo

Would you lay with me?

If i just lay here, would you lay with me and just forget the world?

What would happen if i just decided to stop. Ignore everything. Forget about the world. Forget about you? Leave everything as it is now. Run away to some quiet place. Lay down. And stare. Do nothing. Say nothing. Hear nothing. I'd just watch as the clouds pass by me. As day turns into night. As the clouded gray sky goes black as the sun sets.
The world would obviously keep spinning. People would still die. Get discriminated against. Go to war. Fight. Get killed. Be brainwashed into believing some conformist bullshit. Your everyday injustices would still keep happening. But then people would still fight for what they believe in. Try to change. Make the world a better place. Sing. Be happy. Enjoy the smallest things. Feel loved. Dance. Act crazy without caring about what everyone thinks. And so on.
And i'd be one of those people. Experiencing both sides of the coin. The good. The bad. And there'd also be the normal. The only difference is that i'd be far away. I wouldn't see anything but the sky and the grass. I wouldn't have to feel pain, sadness, anger or any other feeling likely to occur to living beings.

So, would you lay with me and just forget the world?

Peace and Love,
Torii xo

And when it rains it washes everything..

A hot cup of coffee. Toast. Rain gently dropping down outside. Dark, gray clouds casting shadows outside the four walls of my room. The light breeze. I love it. I miss it. It hasn't rained here in such a long time. It's still hot, but the rain is cooling the ground a little so everything is a little more bearable. And hot or not, i WILL go out in hoodie today. Just for the fun of it.

On the other hand-bad news. My dog has cancer. He had this little black thing on his leg and it turned out to be a tumor. He has to undergo major surgery and it's pretty dangerous. The tumor is right over his main blood capillary. Blood capillery gets cut: Pedro dies. I don't think i can handle more any more deaths. It may sound stupid to be so freaked out over a dog, but when you've had him for 7 years it gets hard not to get attached. He's currently lying down next to me. Usually when i see him in the morning he runs up to me wagging his tail and starts licking my hand. Today he stayed in his place, looked at me, looked at his bandage and then back at me again gently placed his head on my hand. He's not stupid. Yes, he steals my food. Hogs up my bed in winter. Steps on my toes without considering how heavy he is -he's half doberman half something else: not fat (: He also talks in his sleep. But, he's not stupid. And he can't die. I couldn't deal with that. At the moment he's dreaming about something. I wonder what. He's moving his forearms and legs as though he were running and he's making these little noises. I hope he gets well soon.

I've been so busy lately that i haven't had time to stop and complain about malta a little. So i guess i can do that now. MALTA SUCKS. Sorry-I just had a childish fit right there. Anywho, the other day i picked up a leaflet that says all the bus numbers, their times, where they go and so on. On the back there was a map of Malta and next to every location there was the bus number which would take you there. 45 was written next to Paradise Bay, and i promised my French friend that we'd go there. We boarded the bus and after 1 hour and a half the fat, hairy driver just says: "Last stop- Cirkewwa" and everyone gets out. So, looking like a retard i walked up to him asking why he isn't going to Paradise Bay. He just says that the bus doesn't go there and that i have to walk it 3 Km up. My question? Why the hell would you say that the bus GOES to Paradise Bay if in reality IT DOESN'T. Can malta get any stupider,I think not. But then again. Malta is racist. Malta has bad roads. Malta does not accept anti-conformity. Malta doesn't care about laws. Example: I thought it was illegal to keep huskies here, so why are there so many. Huskies die in this weather it's not fair on them!!

Ugh. Mood swings suck! First i'm happy. Then I'm Sad. Now I'm angry. And now my mood is going to change again because i'm going to talk about last wednesday. My feelings about wednesday are somewhat ambiguous. I enjoyed it but i didn't but i did. Allow me to elaborate a little. Someone's dancing was somewhat exagerated, to me at least. When you're dancing on a bar hanging on to a pole and guys are looking up skirt because it's so Goddamn short and loose and the guys think you're some kind of whore, I think that's going overboard- Rebound. Yes. Not an excuse. No. I wanted to tell her something but then agauin, friend or not, i felt it was not my place to butt in. Another thing. Going overboard with alcohol. It's stupid. You look stupid. And you do stupid things. Don't do it. Or rather, don't PRETEND you're drunk. It shows that you're not really intoxicated and you tend to look gay. That's another thing certain people did. It's good have fun and there's nothing wrong with getting a little tipsy or happy every now and again. But don't get drunk. It's humilating. One more thing. Pick a boyfriend- Your ex, or the one you're with now? Poor you, I bet it's so hard to choose. Stop flirting with your ex so much, you look stupid and people think you're twotiming. Wat you do in private is up to you and i couldn't care less, but when you make yourself look cheap in public, it's a totally different story. I'm not gong to go into other negative details. Really. I couldn't be bothered.

The nice part about the night was the foam party. Yes, I bruised my elbow and cut it open. But it was fun. My new dress and shoes got drenched- fuck it. I'll put a picture of it, so you can see =)

Well, for now that's it. I can't distract myself by writing any longer,and i'm going to go spoil my dog now. I don't know how much longer i'm going to have him for.

Peace & Love,

Torii xo

Now you're messing with a ..son of bitch =)

It's Summer. It's hot. Global warming is currently at its best. People are switching on airconditioners, fans, staying longer under the shower. School's out for summer- to Alice Cooper. The only thing is there's nothing to do.

God, I wish it California in the 70's. Ah Skating. Flatland. The Zephyr team. Creation of Urethane skateboard wheels. Tony Alva. Ty Page. Stacy P. Jimi Hendrix. Sweet. Pink Floyd. The Ramones. Ah. Sick days those were. People didn't used think twice about things.It was more like Nike- Just do it kinda thing. New music was created. New styles. New fashions. New beliefs. Revolutions. Discoveries.

And what's happening to the world now? Wars, arguments, conformity. People follow eachother blindly. Nothing is new. It's all been done before. Fashion is repeatiing itself, whereas before it was still being created. Music is repeating itself. Even NWOTM- nothing that new. Or different.

If only the world would open her pretty green eyes. Just a little.

Peace and Love,

Torii xo

Do you want to go to the seaside..

Woah. Hangover. I woke up this morning and the taste of the small slice of pizza i ate last night was still lingering. Or clinging annoyingly to my throat rather. I'm currently feeling nauseous still, and it's midnight. I've been like this the whole day. My eyes were hurting. The usual anyway. I'm sure you all know the side effects alcohol leaves on the body. I haven't eaten much today as everything feels extra and like i'm going to just throw it back up.

Anywho. Today Nick and I went to surfside. I love it there. We took photos. Laughed-A lot. Planned stuff. Talked. Listened to the sea crushing violently against the rocks. And even thought we heard thunder. As a great philosopher once said- "Your senses are deceiving you". Tonight there was a kind of role reversal. Nick drank alcohol. I drank a soda. Odd. Ironic. And altogether funny to me. The alcohol taunted me a little but just smelling it made me sick again. I think i'm off it for a while. Strange as it sounds, what i remember the most about last night is what i drank. Yuck. I just read what i posted last night, and i must admit, i feel somewhat ashamed at how badly written it was. It made me laugh though. And i hear that there's nothing better than laughing at yourself. YOU should do it once in a while =) Hell, nobody's perfect, right? We all make mistakes. And it's nice to see that you can really laugh at some of them.

Tiramisú is screaming at the top of lungs at me and asking why i haven't eaten it yet. So i'm off to fulfill my duties =) Haha I feel happy today. Don't know why. What. Or who. But i just am.

My last message for you all..BE! Everything, just BE!

Peace and Love,
Torii xo